It’s through silence and solitude that you begin to learn about yourself, about life, about your existence for that matter. But it is never possible to see the big picture till the end of everything, and that only happens for those lucky few who get this sudden and random revelation of thoughts. The ancient people call it ‘God speaking to them’; they describe it as a voice/sound so sweet, majestic, peaceful and wonderful. Well, now I know what they mean, because it is just a metaphor for the knowledge gained.
I spent the past week drinking, thinking in both drunk and sober states, and the thoughts just overflows; it causes me to think about things that hurts, not just about the sadness in life which hurts the soul and leaves the emotional scar, but the kind of pain which causes confusion, delusions, false truths, fake emotions, basically living in your own thoughts. This emptiness, this void, is just causing me to think of the changes of my personality, my character and my life. But one thing still remains, belief. Believing that ‘all is well’ ~ quoted from 3 idiots(which I personally feel is an extraordinary movie).
With all this changes, I start to think about destiny and fate. Firstly, you got to understand here (with a little bit of knowledge of algebra) that destiny is a constant. It cannot change, so let’s let destiny be D, and fate is a variable, so let’s call it F. Let me explain here, your destiny cannot be changed because it is what you are destined to do, it is what you were built and created for, and fate determines whether you fulfill your destiny. Your fate can change and disrupt your whole course in life. For example, you were destined to be a singer. But is it fate that you meet a murder and gets killed by him. So your whole destiny is just destroyed just like that. So what do I mean by fate can be changed. Fate is a force driven by our own actions, timing, and decisions or what I like to call is choices. Humans are giving the power to make choices, the freedom to say yes or no, agree or disagree, do or don’t. These choices play a part in fate. Timing is something we cannot control as we can neither control our time or the time of others. In the past, not so long ago, most people know what they want and how to achieve it. Now with luxury and no suffering, people take things for granted and just keep on making the wrong decisions in life, causing bad choices to be made, which causes many destinies to be unfulfilled, and this causes a chain in the world. Cause we were put here for a reason to make a change, to make the world a better place. With so many missing pieces missing and destroyed, the world is just reaching its end at a much faster pace, bringing about a new world, a world different from the day I was born, it is going to create a new era, which would be hash and terrible to change the world. And maybe 2012 may just be true, a time for God to reset time and reboot man, to bring about a new change. This can be formed in the equation F=D. BUT fate is not destiny, it is variable, and how it changes affects destiny.
But sometimes I really wonder the things happening to me, is it fate or God’s idea of a joke. People keep saying how I can be bored, how can I be single; I salute with my middle finger. My life now is serious on the verge of falling apart, if I just ain’t strong enough and put my thoughts together, I would have most probably fallen off some building. There are many things more important than money and love in this world. Yes, no doubt love is a powerful force that feeds us with drive and something to live for, but I just seem to have lost all hope for whatever my destiny is, and know that my fate is now sealed and dead.
I guess now all I can do know is pray, hoping that God exists and answer my prayers and just let me be normal and enjoy reality.
I spent the past week drinking, thinking in both drunk and sober states, and the thoughts just overflows; it causes me to think about things that hurts, not just about the sadness in life which hurts the soul and leaves the emotional scar, but the kind of pain which causes confusion, delusions, false truths, fake emotions, basically living in your own thoughts. This emptiness, this void, is just causing me to think of the changes of my personality, my character and my life. But one thing still remains, belief. Believing that ‘all is well’ ~ quoted from 3 idiots(which I personally feel is an extraordinary movie).
With all this changes, I start to think about destiny and fate. Firstly, you got to understand here (with a little bit of knowledge of algebra) that destiny is a constant. It cannot change, so let’s let destiny be D, and fate is a variable, so let’s call it F. Let me explain here, your destiny cannot be changed because it is what you are destined to do, it is what you were built and created for, and fate determines whether you fulfill your destiny. Your fate can change and disrupt your whole course in life. For example, you were destined to be a singer. But is it fate that you meet a murder and gets killed by him. So your whole destiny is just destroyed just like that. So what do I mean by fate can be changed. Fate is a force driven by our own actions, timing, and decisions or what I like to call is choices. Humans are giving the power to make choices, the freedom to say yes or no, agree or disagree, do or don’t. These choices play a part in fate. Timing is something we cannot control as we can neither control our time or the time of others. In the past, not so long ago, most people know what they want and how to achieve it. Now with luxury and no suffering, people take things for granted and just keep on making the wrong decisions in life, causing bad choices to be made, which causes many destinies to be unfulfilled, and this causes a chain in the world. Cause we were put here for a reason to make a change, to make the world a better place. With so many missing pieces missing and destroyed, the world is just reaching its end at a much faster pace, bringing about a new world, a world different from the day I was born, it is going to create a new era, which would be hash and terrible to change the world. And maybe 2012 may just be true, a time for God to reset time and reboot man, to bring about a new change. This can be formed in the equation F=D. BUT fate is not destiny, it is variable, and how it changes affects destiny.
But sometimes I really wonder the things happening to me, is it fate or God’s idea of a joke. People keep saying how I can be bored, how can I be single; I salute with my middle finger. My life now is serious on the verge of falling apart, if I just ain’t strong enough and put my thoughts together, I would have most probably fallen off some building. There are many things more important than money and love in this world. Yes, no doubt love is a powerful force that feeds us with drive and something to live for, but I just seem to have lost all hope for whatever my destiny is, and know that my fate is now sealed and dead.
I guess now all I can do know is pray, hoping that God exists and answer my prayers and just let me be normal and enjoy reality.
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