It really doesn’t mean anything anymore… the sickening lies and deceit. I guess its karma for lying too, Lying about many things. But some facts and reality are just too hard to spill out to people whom you first meet but as time goes along, you just can’t tell people no shit. Because it’s a secret deep within that is painful to divulge. The scars and tears behind ever lie. The world is just plain complicated. Empty promises mean nothing, so do promises. Even to yourself, you think that you have actually put it behind you, but somehow it is just not as easy as it seems. You break a promise made to yourself, so how can you promise someone something when you can’t even promise yourself something? Seeing people from all walks of life, literally, it is just disgusting to know that my species- humans are capable of doing things that even animals don’t, which brings me to ponder much about Adam and eve’s decedent’s curse on the knowledge of good and evil. Look here, I am not saying I’, all perfect and all, I am only mortal, so in a nutshell, I despise myself too:/ I guess we all live in a world where everyman fights for himself. Alright probably an example, a purely fictional one (gonna use an example in a club since I have been indulging so much into it):
Guy A pretends to be someone, probably steals and cheats money from people, wear nice clothes and all, but deep inside, he’s empty, to fill the void, he sleeps around and break young girl’s hearts. (sounds like me but I swear this is not me! ) HAHAHAHA!! He comes up with lies to make his life more interesting. But again look at it at this point of view he has a broken family, and this is a fucking chain, I swear, a fucking chain of misery! In a way where all of us are link by. Example of this example->
Man divorces wife because of another woman
Wife raises 2 kids, 1 girl 1 boy
Wife works hard to support 2 kids, and has poor work attitude probably due to personal problems, and just cannot talk to guys, generalizing that all man are assholes
Man gets cheated by the woman, ashamed to go home, gambles, drinks alcohol everyday, get drunk, becomes a person not easy to get along with, he cause problem to his work place, which affects other’s work and return this guy is affected he brings the problem back to his family his kids and wife gets annoyed at home, kids turn into gangsters, pick up smoking, drinking, clubbing, bullies others in school to feel empowered, other kid turns hermit afraid of doing many things affecting his future and he could have been a key component, in the future, probably a peace keeper, but this fear made him an accountant his whole life, the people he could have met and changed them in a way,
Back to Guy a, his girl has daddy issues, sleep around with guys as a form of revenge ( hohoho!! Don’t be surprised here!! A very very common reason for sluts to be sluts) this girl probably broke the relationship of this 2 couples who were destined to be together for life and their kids may be firemen/policemen/ministers/presidents to save the world, things like this.
So you can see here how fucked up destiny and fate is being disrupted here! The natural flow of life is being affected! Natural flow in this instance would be what I call the knowledge of good without the bad in it! And see these things causes a chain which people do not realize comes back as a form of revenge which what the Buddhist calls karma, which is purely science and maths!!
And money, it is everyone’s aim(just generalizing about the majority here). They wanna earn money hoping for a better life, YES!! THAT IS RIGHT! But in the process of LIFE, they made some mistakes here and there, affecting life of others, which comes back right at them! So it is really WTF?!
Enough of my ranting and shits. I’m just purely down and sad because life hasn’t been easy for me, dealing with shits. Because of the pain I have been inflicted with, I try to cover it up, in return, hurting myself so much more. its fucking painful. You have not been through what I have. I swear it fucking hurts like fuck. But again everyone has their fair share of shit. I may not be the worst off fella here, but in terms of fairness in life, I am not treated fairly. And that is purely unfair. But this is life(usually people stop here, I’m gonna continue)everyone has the ability and capability to be more caring and loving towards one another, to accept one another, to know your roles and responsibilities, to behave like a human being, not an animal. To be loyal, to be caring to be loving, and ect. If everyone just tries this out, it may be the solution. I am still working on it myself. Hopefully it will work out fine. And this is what the olden people says: do good and you shall be rewarded. Which people take into doing good deeds to cover up your bad deeds.
Guy A pretends to be someone, probably steals and cheats money from people, wear nice clothes and all, but deep inside, he’s empty, to fill the void, he sleeps around and break young girl’s hearts. (sounds like me but I swear this is not me! ) HAHAHAHA!! He comes up with lies to make his life more interesting. But again look at it at this point of view he has a broken family, and this is a fucking chain, I swear, a fucking chain of misery! In a way where all of us are link by. Example of this example->
Man divorces wife because of another woman
Wife raises 2 kids, 1 girl 1 boy
Wife works hard to support 2 kids, and has poor work attitude probably due to personal problems, and just cannot talk to guys, generalizing that all man are assholes
Man gets cheated by the woman, ashamed to go home, gambles, drinks alcohol everyday, get drunk, becomes a person not easy to get along with, he cause problem to his work place, which affects other’s work and return this guy is affected he brings the problem back to his family his kids and wife gets annoyed at home, kids turn into gangsters, pick up smoking, drinking, clubbing, bullies others in school to feel empowered, other kid turns hermit afraid of doing many things affecting his future and he could have been a key component, in the future, probably a peace keeper, but this fear made him an accountant his whole life, the people he could have met and changed them in a way,
Back to Guy a, his girl has daddy issues, sleep around with guys as a form of revenge ( hohoho!! Don’t be surprised here!! A very very common reason for sluts to be sluts) this girl probably broke the relationship of this 2 couples who were destined to be together for life and their kids may be firemen/policemen/ministers/presidents to save the world, things like this.
So you can see here how fucked up destiny and fate is being disrupted here! The natural flow of life is being affected! Natural flow in this instance would be what I call the knowledge of good without the bad in it! And see these things causes a chain which people do not realize comes back as a form of revenge which what the Buddhist calls karma, which is purely science and maths!!
And money, it is everyone’s aim(just generalizing about the majority here). They wanna earn money hoping for a better life, YES!! THAT IS RIGHT! But in the process of LIFE, they made some mistakes here and there, affecting life of others, which comes back right at them! So it is really WTF?!
Enough of my ranting and shits. I’m just purely down and sad because life hasn’t been easy for me, dealing with shits. Because of the pain I have been inflicted with, I try to cover it up, in return, hurting myself so much more. its fucking painful. You have not been through what I have. I swear it fucking hurts like fuck. But again everyone has their fair share of shit. I may not be the worst off fella here, but in terms of fairness in life, I am not treated fairly. And that is purely unfair. But this is life(usually people stop here, I’m gonna continue)everyone has the ability and capability to be more caring and loving towards one another, to accept one another, to know your roles and responsibilities, to behave like a human being, not an animal. To be loyal, to be caring to be loving, and ect. If everyone just tries this out, it may be the solution. I am still working on it myself. Hopefully it will work out fine. And this is what the olden people says: do good and you shall be rewarded. Which people take into doing good deeds to cover up your bad deeds.
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