6.5.12 5/06/2012 07:25:00 AM
Heart, hides what we can't say. But eyes, say what we try to hide.
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Today, I had the cab ride that I believe would change my life, as Ted in ‘how I met your mother’ has. To understand why I say this lets go back to a few hours before the cab ride. Today, I was at Avalon, and when I was at Avalon and at the office, I had many Déjà vus, and I was feeling very weird the whole night already. I was experiencing things I have already experienced before, things that have passed, in dreams that made me have certain thoughts that made me make certain decisions that have altered the path of my life.
And as I was on my way home, this taxi driver sent me and my friends back. And I was last, although I was supposed to be first due to certain circumstances. But initially we were supposed to have supper cum breakfast first, but everyone was tired and it was quite out of the way, we all decided to go back, but towards the end, the taxi uncle offered to send me for supper and to accompany me for supper. And so, we went to Chong pang for the all so famous nasi lemak. This uncle paid for my meal, gave me his cigarettes and sent me home.
In today’s world, would you break meal with a stranger, would you offer him things although you do not have much? Would you share what you have with another stranger? I was awed by this simple gesture. Although the meal and taxi ride was so much, it still meals something of worth to him, to cover his overheads and to feed his family.
And when I asked him why was he so nice to me, he replied’ because you remind me of my son’ in a voice that was once so strong that turned frail. I did not dare to ask further because I was afraid it might open old wounds. But I could see how much hurt he felt when he spoke of his son.
It makes me feel that a parent’s love is so great and that no matter what circumstances it may be, one would still love their child. And his heart sank further when he asked me how old I was. When I told him the year I was born in, there was a long and awkward silence. He broke it by saying’ you are born in the same year as my son, what are the odds…’ I really wanted to prive further to know and understand more about his story, but I was really afraid to ask, but again I was thinking if I asked would it be a lending ear to him. But then I just decided to say this’ uncle, thank you so much for everything. I am really touched by your actions and it really means A lot to me. It has been a really sad period of time for me and this really motivates me. And your kindness has touched my heart and I want you to know that it is greatly appreciated’ and to understand this part a little bit more, all I can say is’ I attract the wrong kind of girls into my life.’ And it hurts real bad.
These are just something small, but imagine how much it means to the taxi uncle? I pray and wish that God will bless him and his family, especially his son. I am really glad that nice people still exist in this world full of horrors and evil.
Part of the conversation, he mentioned about me being good looking and he mentioned to me about making good use and decisions about being good looking. (ok till this point, I really don’t admit I am good looking even though I may joke about it and many people telling me that and telling me so.) This taxi uncle encouraged me to be an actor or a singer. A career I have never thought of. I wonder if it is a sign. He told me not to break any girl’s heart because every girl has parents who love them and it wouldn’t be nice. He also told me not to drink so much as it was bad for my health and my parent would be so hurt. These lessons would be deeply engraved in my soul… but still, I believe the moral of the story is to be nice to everyone around you. Spread the love. If everyone share an act of kindness a day, it would make the world a much better place.
And as I was on my way home, this taxi driver sent me and my friends back. And I was last, although I was supposed to be first due to certain circumstances. But initially we were supposed to have supper cum breakfast first, but everyone was tired and it was quite out of the way, we all decided to go back, but towards the end, the taxi uncle offered to send me for supper and to accompany me for supper. And so, we went to Chong pang for the all so famous nasi lemak. This uncle paid for my meal, gave me his cigarettes and sent me home.
In today’s world, would you break meal with a stranger, would you offer him things although you do not have much? Would you share what you have with another stranger? I was awed by this simple gesture. Although the meal and taxi ride was so much, it still meals something of worth to him, to cover his overheads and to feed his family.
And when I asked him why was he so nice to me, he replied’ because you remind me of my son’ in a voice that was once so strong that turned frail. I did not dare to ask further because I was afraid it might open old wounds. But I could see how much hurt he felt when he spoke of his son.
It makes me feel that a parent’s love is so great and that no matter what circumstances it may be, one would still love their child. And his heart sank further when he asked me how old I was. When I told him the year I was born in, there was a long and awkward silence. He broke it by saying’ you are born in the same year as my son, what are the odds…’ I really wanted to prive further to know and understand more about his story, but I was really afraid to ask, but again I was thinking if I asked would it be a lending ear to him. But then I just decided to say this’ uncle, thank you so much for everything. I am really touched by your actions and it really means A lot to me. It has been a really sad period of time for me and this really motivates me. And your kindness has touched my heart and I want you to know that it is greatly appreciated’ and to understand this part a little bit more, all I can say is’ I attract the wrong kind of girls into my life.’ And it hurts real bad.
These are just something small, but imagine how much it means to the taxi uncle? I pray and wish that God will bless him and his family, especially his son. I am really glad that nice people still exist in this world full of horrors and evil.
Part of the conversation, he mentioned about me being good looking and he mentioned to me about making good use and decisions about being good looking. (ok till this point, I really don’t admit I am good looking even though I may joke about it and many people telling me that and telling me so.) This taxi uncle encouraged me to be an actor or a singer. A career I have never thought of. I wonder if it is a sign. He told me not to break any girl’s heart because every girl has parents who love them and it wouldn’t be nice. He also told me not to drink so much as it was bad for my health and my parent would be so hurt. These lessons would be deeply engraved in my soul… but still, I believe the moral of the story is to be nice to everyone around you. Spread the love. If everyone share an act of kindness a day, it would make the world a much better place.
30.4.12 4/30/2012 01:34:00 AM
Perhaps it is good to have a beautiful face, but an even greater gift is to discover a beautiful heart.
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Everything will be ok in the end. If it is not yet ok, then it is not yet the end. History brings about lessons of pain and destruction, but also a destruction of certain things to make way for the new things, and the future, which bring about certain uncertainty. Being worried is like walking on a treadmill. It keeps you busy but it doesn't get you anywhere. The times I look in the mirror, I don’t recognize myself, I don’t remember who I am, what’s my purpose, what my past is sometimes. I guess all the memories I have left is what I am trying my best to hold on to. But still it slips away like water; formless.
All these failure have brought me to a stage where I felt my life should have been how it is, and I keep thinking how I should have been. All the regrets, being made-up for with this lifestyle I have now. Not something every human being or average teen would experience. It is nice, but the thought of losing my youth, when I already had such a bad childhood makes me feel that my life is even more ruined. Everything I have planned and set out to do didn’t turn out as planned. I am sick and tired of this bullshit. Fuck that shit. I am in control. I should be in control. Not fate, not destiny.. my choices and outcomes seems to be twisted and fucked. I am strong because I am weak, I am beautiful because I know my flaws, I am fearless because I’ve been afraid.. All these scars have a long story to tell.. Scars remind us of where we've been. They don't have to dictate where we're going.
The way words can be used is just so mystical. The trouble life brings is just beyond what I can bear. They way my mood affects my thinking is just a catastrophe. If life holds more than money and looks, life would be just perfect. Being perfect in this world is so impossible. Danger lurks, and I wonder how long more I can hold on. The perfection I dream of is purely impossible. The photos of those I know in a columbarium is more than I ever imagined I knew. Seeing them just makes me feel that life is fragile. The tear in my eyes which will flow out if I just said any word, makes me think of dying. Death seems like an escape
" Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
29.2.12 2/29/2012 05:31:00 AM
I used to be love drunk, but now i'm hungover. I love you forever, forever is over
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Memories don't leave like people do. The things which are easily achieved in life do not stay longer with you, and the things which stay longer with you in life are not easily achieved. Simply put it, I have been sleeping, gyming, drinking coffee and watching videos at home.
Well eddy came over to my place to gym, and yeap, probably the only interesting thing that has happened recently. Well tonight is ladies night I am going to m’sia with robin on fri and bye bye Singapore!!:DD HAHAHAHA!!!
I really do needa get a life soon! HAHAHAHA!!! Lazing ard cause I don’t need to spend so much money, and I am not working because I am lazy to and I have enough to last me through 2 more months of not workingHAHAHA!! NOT GONNA WORK TILL I AM BROKE!! Lol!!!
Well eddy came over to my place to gym, and yeap, probably the only interesting thing that has happened recently. Well tonight is ladies night I am going to m’sia with robin on fri and bye bye Singapore!!:DD HAHAHAHA!!!
I really do needa get a life soon! HAHAHAHA!!! Lazing ard cause I don’t need to spend so much money, and I am not working because I am lazy to and I have enough to last me through 2 more months of not workingHAHAHA!! NOT GONNA WORK TILL I AM BROKE!! Lol!!!
26.2.12 2/26/2012 06:08:00 PM
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there comes a point in life when you forget who you are what you need to do and how you ended up where you are. and friends are the ones who can help u back on track. but again as u grow older, you realize your friends are too busy for you and you are all alone.
resolution->
study hard
work hard
exercise hard
train hard
stop partying
avoid alcohol at all cost
find some friends worthy of your friendship.
go to church.
PEAS OUT!
resolution->
study hard
work hard
exercise hard
train hard
stop partying
avoid alcohol at all cost
find some friends worthy of your friendship.
go to church.
PEAS OUT!
sometimes i really wonder what it is i have that make you all fall head over heels for me. to make me feel bad. to make things akward.. sometimes i wish i wasn't like this. because this isn't who i am. this isn't me.. you are all liking a facade, there is someone inside you all dont know.. are you sure you will like that person?? the looks, the clothes, the parties, the gymming, all a facade.. no regrets?
i like to cook, i like to learn how to play new instruments, i like fixing my hse hold equipments and furnitures.. i like to have slow walks in the park. i like to read a good book over coffee. i need aircon to survive.. i love my mother and my brother more than anything in the world. i am not from a rich family. i am blessed to have a loving mom and brother who dotes on me. i have a cousin i dote on like a little sister although i don't show it most of the time. i miss my daddy all the time.. i have depression and i am on medication daily. i like taking the public transport when i am not in a rush. i like to observe people's behaviors. i believe in Jesus Christ. i teach little kids taekwondo. i have a criminal record. i work very hard to earn whatever i have, i literally have to sweat and bleed to earn the money. i want a better life in the future for my family. i do not want to get into a relationship because i dont know how to commit and i dont know how to. i dont like to be controlled. i like swimming at night. i can rewatch shows i like countless time. i have watched she's the man for at least 365 times because i watch it everyday without fail in 2009.
so you think you still know me??
i like to cook, i like to learn how to play new instruments, i like fixing my hse hold equipments and furnitures.. i like to have slow walks in the park. i like to read a good book over coffee. i need aircon to survive.. i love my mother and my brother more than anything in the world. i am not from a rich family. i am blessed to have a loving mom and brother who dotes on me. i have a cousin i dote on like a little sister although i don't show it most of the time. i miss my daddy all the time.. i have depression and i am on medication daily. i like taking the public transport when i am not in a rush. i like to observe people's behaviors. i believe in Jesus Christ. i teach little kids taekwondo. i have a criminal record. i work very hard to earn whatever i have, i literally have to sweat and bleed to earn the money. i want a better life in the future for my family. i do not want to get into a relationship because i dont know how to commit and i dont know how to. i dont like to be controlled. i like swimming at night. i can rewatch shows i like countless time. i have watched she's the man for at least 365 times because i watch it everyday without fail in 2009.
so you think you still know me??
20.2.12 2/20/2012 05:30:00 AM
Philophobia & caligynephobia & commitmentphobia THE MAN WHO CANT LOVE
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well let's let the adventures begin. life seriously has its ups and downs, its twists and turns, but this is what makes life worth living for. God doesn't give you the people you want. He gives you the people you need;
to help you,
to hurt you,
to leave you,
to love you,
And to make you in the person you were meant to be.
a very artistic picture taken by someone special<3 wait for me?? give me time??
fucked up atm. gave me all 10 dollar notes.. and the min was 200.... u can imagine....
i managed to catch up with Robin. i really do miss him a lot. and seeing and hanging out with him again made me realise who mature he is now and how immature and unwise i am becoming.. i was really glad we got to talk pal<3 <3 really do miss you and your gf!! you two are the sweetest couple i know!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! DO GET MARRIED AND GIVE ME ANGPOWS SOON!!!
well well well, i went to kinki rooftop bar on sat! was totally awesome
nice view, good music and a good crowd!!
plus the drink promotions are really not that bad!!
and next stop was avalon!! it was awesome as always!!:DD do contact me for guestlist! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
WELL, we got some sickass awesome vip seats beside the stage. in this little black box. it was awesome to be in there!!! :DD love it! :DD hahahaha!! managed to trick faiz and his gf with my magic trick!! alcohol does wonders:P HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
jiayin's dulan face over amanda's and claire's rants !! HAHAHAHA!! oh ya! we ate bcm and prata! :DD
next it was the fire at thomson plaza's ntuc! i guess it was an explosion of some sort. there were 3 fire engines 2 big ones and 1 huge ass one with that fucking crane!!
there was a lock down of the place
u can see the smoke and whole area smelt like burnt plastic! it was disgusting!!
the staffs were doing an account of the events that happened
i thought during a fire one should only use the stairs? LOL!! JOKE!!
THE LOCK DOWN!! SEE THE SUTOMATIC GRILLS CLOSING??
and of cause i had dinner with kiat at this bbq chicken place with is apparently a Korean fastfood chain, which cooks their food in olive oil. nice thing was they were showing the hot and fake korean girls singing and dancing on tv. annoying thing was the guys... seriously hate them after my mom called me a 'gerger' because of them!!! :<
ANYWAY
to all my female friends. yes. i know i am a good person to come to when you're emo and all, but come on, i am not a toy yea?? i'm your friend. if you have a boyfriend, dont hide me from him! if you are in a relationship and you are my friend, we can still be friends! if your partner is so paranoid, there is something wrong with either one of you! so get your life in check!!
and girls!!! you are all like apples, the best ones are at the top of the tree. some boys dont want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling, afraid of getting hurt, so they settle for the ones on the ground. rotten with defects here and there! dont bring yourself down. dont lower your standards, dont be a rotten apple, dont fuck yourself up to a point of no return because once you're on the ground. you're fucked. you can never go back up on that tree again. you only hope is they your off spring would be good apples. when you are on top. don't think there is something wrong with you that no guys want you!! in fact you are amazing and you just have to fucking wait for the right boy to come and pick you up. the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top!
dear girls,
open books not legs
blow minds not guys!
as for those who already do feel you are fucked up, change, find someone who is willing to accept you for who you are...
and guys, dont fucking go ard toying around with girls. because that's fucked up.
all my life it wasn't easy for me to love someone. everytime i do, it ends up in a heartbreak. the least i cared the more i was cared for. this is a pretty damn sick and twisted reality for me. as much as i hate it, i have no choice but to live with it.
sometimes all i wish for is a comfortable kind of love. The kind where it doesn’t matter what you’re wearing, how you look like, or how you act anymore; it’s just comfortable, relaxed. There aren’t so many worries or insecurities between the two of you. You don’t have to try so hard in order to impress each other either. You can go over to each others’ houses and just hang out. There’s no pressure to have sex or anything like that. The two of you can just cuddle in bed, talking about anything or watching your favorite movies. You can play random video games or take long naps together. You can sing and dance or raid the fridge for something to eat. My mom loves you; your dad approves. You could spend all day together in your pajamas, with the morning breath and messy bed hair, yet it wouldn’t matter, coz its a comfortable kind of love. ♥ i do hope you all have this image of love in you head as well, probably something similar.. but i guess it's gonna take a long while for me this time.. the last time it took 3 years:/ sigh:'((
to help you,
to hurt you,
to leave you,
to love you,
And to make you in the person you were meant to be.
a very artistic picture taken by someone special<3 wait for me?? give me time??
fucked up atm. gave me all 10 dollar notes.. and the min was 200.... u can imagine....
i managed to catch up with Robin. i really do miss him a lot. and seeing and hanging out with him again made me realise who mature he is now and how immature and unwise i am becoming.. i was really glad we got to talk pal<3 <3 really do miss you and your gf!! you two are the sweetest couple i know!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! DO GET MARRIED AND GIVE ME ANGPOWS SOON!!!
well well well, i went to kinki rooftop bar on sat! was totally awesome
nice view, good music and a good crowd!!
plus the drink promotions are really not that bad!!
and next stop was avalon!! it was awesome as always!!:DD do contact me for guestlist! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
WELL, we got some sickass awesome vip seats beside the stage. in this little black box. it was awesome to be in there!!! :DD love it! :DD hahahaha!! managed to trick faiz and his gf with my magic trick!! alcohol does wonders:P HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
jiayin's dulan face over amanda's and claire's rants !! HAHAHAHA!! oh ya! we ate bcm and prata! :DD
next it was the fire at thomson plaza's ntuc! i guess it was an explosion of some sort. there were 3 fire engines 2 big ones and 1 huge ass one with that fucking crane!!
there was a lock down of the place
u can see the smoke and whole area smelt like burnt plastic! it was disgusting!!
the staffs were doing an account of the events that happened
i thought during a fire one should only use the stairs? LOL!! JOKE!!
THE LOCK DOWN!! SEE THE SUTOMATIC GRILLS CLOSING??
and of cause i had dinner with kiat at this bbq chicken place with is apparently a Korean fastfood chain, which cooks their food in olive oil. nice thing was they were showing the hot and fake korean girls singing and dancing on tv. annoying thing was the guys... seriously hate them after my mom called me a 'gerger' because of them!!! :<ANYWAY
to all my female friends. yes. i know i am a good person to come to when you're emo and all, but come on, i am not a toy yea?? i'm your friend. if you have a boyfriend, dont hide me from him! if you are in a relationship and you are my friend, we can still be friends! if your partner is so paranoid, there is something wrong with either one of you! so get your life in check!!
and girls!!! you are all like apples, the best ones are at the top of the tree. some boys dont want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling, afraid of getting hurt, so they settle for the ones on the ground. rotten with defects here and there! dont bring yourself down. dont lower your standards, dont be a rotten apple, dont fuck yourself up to a point of no return because once you're on the ground. you're fucked. you can never go back up on that tree again. you only hope is they your off spring would be good apples. when you are on top. don't think there is something wrong with you that no guys want you!! in fact you are amazing and you just have to fucking wait for the right boy to come and pick you up. the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top!
dear girls,
open books not legs
blow minds not guys!
as for those who already do feel you are fucked up, change, find someone who is willing to accept you for who you are...
and guys, dont fucking go ard toying around with girls. because that's fucked up.
all my life it wasn't easy for me to love someone. everytime i do, it ends up in a heartbreak. the least i cared the more i was cared for. this is a pretty damn sick and twisted reality for me. as much as i hate it, i have no choice but to live with it.
sometimes all i wish for is a comfortable kind of love. The kind where it doesn’t matter what you’re wearing, how you look like, or how you act anymore; it’s just comfortable, relaxed. There aren’t so many worries or insecurities between the two of you. You don’t have to try so hard in order to impress each other either. You can go over to each others’ houses and just hang out. There’s no pressure to have sex or anything like that. The two of you can just cuddle in bed, talking about anything or watching your favorite movies. You can play random video games or take long naps together. You can sing and dance or raid the fridge for something to eat. My mom loves you; your dad approves. You could spend all day together in your pajamas, with the morning breath and messy bed hair, yet it wouldn’t matter, coz its a comfortable kind of love. ♥ i do hope you all have this image of love in you head as well, probably something similar.. but i guess it's gonna take a long while for me this time.. the last time it took 3 years:/ sigh:'((
God didnt bless me with a sister but he did bless me with a bestie!! to help me snap shots of girls whom i say is cute and whatsapp to me!!!!!:DD <3
had dinner with belle today:DD
went to gym:DD
ended up at mbk, saw belle and lollazxc!!
:)
dips!!!
hung out with someone special:))
but i got a gift<3
alone with my riblets
how i spent valatines:((
Saint Valentine's Day, commonly shortened to Valentine's Day, is a holiday observed on February 14 honoring one or more early Christian martyrs named Saint Valentine. It was first established by Pope Gelasius I in 496 AD, and was later deleted from the General Roman Calendar of saints in 1969 by Pope Paul VI. look here, the Pope had already deleted it of the freaking calander! so why still celebrate it? Hey look here, i'm a lover but celebrating it on this day doesn't promotes love, it is just a marketing scheme by businesses to improve business and sales on this day/occasion!
look if you wanna buy someone chocolates you can do so any day, any time, anywhere! it's this kind of things that make it more surprising! and all you bitches!! don't act surprised with your surprises!! it's something you expect and if you don't get it, you'll probably be with someone else next valentines!! so fuck?? girls!! you put the freaking fucking pressure on guys!! you girls compare with one another in this subtle and ninja mode which to naked eye(male vision in this instance) can't see what you are doing! you post things on facebook, twitter, check in to the nice restaurants, trying to tell the world what a capable mate you have.. and fuck?! you get annoyed when girls are interested in your man! fuck you! if you are so afraid, keep your bf and your activities to yourself!! bitches...
The history of Valentine's Day--and the story of its patron saint--is shrouded in mystery. We do know that February has long been celebrated as a month of romance, and that St. Valentine's Day, as we know it today, contains vestiges of both Christian and ancient Roman tradition. But who was Saint Valentine, and how did he become associated with this ancient rite?
The Catholic Church recognizes at least three different saints named Valentine or Valentinus, all of whom were martyred. One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.
Other stories suggest that Valentine may have been killed for attempting to help Christians escape harsh Roman prisons, where they were often beaten and tortured. According to one legend, an imprisoned Valentine actually sent the first "valentine" greeting himself after he fell in love with a young girl--possibly his jailor's daughter--who visited him during his confinement. Before his death, it is alleged that he wrote her a letter signed "From your Valentine," an expression that is still in use today. Although the truth behind the Valentine legends is murky, the stories all emphasize his appeal as a sympathetic, heroic and--most importantly--romantic figure.
So here's the thing.. why celebrate it on a day when someone is killed with chocolates and cards and gifts? look love is not all about all these material things, and thing is this!! WHY ARE ALL THE GIRLS SO MATERIALISTIC?! this is pretty damn fucked up!! and guys! stop fucking thinking about sex/soccer/pussy all the time!! let me show you this equation
girls <3 $$
guys=$$
guys <3pussy
girls=pussy
girls give pussy for money, guys give money for pussy
that is how cheap this works!!
Studies in neuroscience have involved chemicals that are present in the brain and might be involved when people experience love. These chemicals include: nerve growth factor, testosterone, estrogen, dopamine, norepinephrine, serotonin, oxytocin, and vasopressin. Adequate brain levels of testosterone seem important for both human male and female sexual behavior. Dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin are more commonly found during the attraction phase of a relationship. Oxytocin and vasopressin seemed to be more closely linked to long term bonding and relationships characterized by strong attachments.
The conventional view in biology is that there are two major drives in love — sexual attraction and attachment. Attachment between adults is presumed to work on the same principles that lead an infant to become attached to his or her mother or father– or both.
The chemicals triggered that are responsible for passionate love and long-term attachment love seem to be more particular to the activities in which both persons participate rather than to the nature of the specific people involved.
Anthropologist Helen Fisher also adds lust to the experience of love. Lust exposes people to others, and is the initial passionate sexual desire that promotes mating, and involves the increased release of chemicals such as testosterone and estrogen. These effects rarely last more than a few weeks or months.
Serotonin
Chemically, the serotonin effects of being infatuated have a similar chemical appearance to obsessive-compulsive disorder; which could explain why people experiencing infatuation cannot think of anyone else. For this reason some assert that taking SSRIs and other antidepressants impede one's ability to fall in love. In one particular case anthropologist Helen Fisher noted:
I know of one couple on the edge of divorce. The wife was on an antidepressant. Then she went off it, started having orgasms once more, felt the renewal of sexual attraction for her husband, and they're now in love all over again.
There are a lot of chemicals racing around your brain and body when you're in love. Researchers are gradually learning more and more about the roles they play both when we are falling in love and when we're in long-term relationships. Of course, estrogen and testosterone play a role in the sex drive area. Without them, we might never venture into the "real love" arena.
That initial giddiness that comes when we're first falling in love includes a racing heart, flushed skin and sweaty palms. Researchers say this is due to the dopamine, norepinephrine and phenylethylamine we're releasing. Dopamine is thought to be the "pleasure chemical," producing a feeling of bliss. Norepinephrine is similar to adrenaline and produces the racing heart and excitement. According to Helen Fisher, anthropologist and well-known love researcher from Rutgers University, together these two chemicals produce elation, intense energy, sleeplessness, craving, loss of appetite and focused attention. She also says, "The human body releases the cocktail of love rapture only when certain conditions are met and ... men more readily produce it than women, because of their more visual nature."
Researchers are using functional magnetic resonance imaging (fMRI) to watch people's brains when they look at a photograph of their object of affection. According to Helen Fisher, a well-known love researcher and an anthropologist at Rutgers University, what they see in those scans during that "crazed, can't-think-of-anything-but stage of romance" -- the attraction stage -- is the biological drive to focus on one person. The scans showed increased blood flow in areas of the brain with high concentrations of receptors for dopamine -- associated with states of euphoria, craving and addiction. High levels of dopamine are also associated with norepinephrine, which heightens attention, short-term memory, hyperactivity, sleeplessness and goal-oriented behavior. In other words, couples in this stage of love focus intently on the relationship and often on little else.
Another possible explanation for the intense focus and idealizing view that occurs in the attraction stage comes from researchers at University College London. They discovered that people in love have lower levels of serotonin and also that neural circuits associated with the way we assess others are suppressed. These lower serotonin levels are the same as those found in people with obsessive-compulsive disorders, possibly explaining why those in love "obsess" about their partner.
so after all this, the choice is yours if you want to celebrate the V-day:))
ANYWAY! today i had ramen with tessa, she got me free gongcha. really glad i did get to hangout with her although she was like PMS-ing the whole way!!! grrrr!!!! irritating lil girl!!! but still she is an awesome friend:DD happy v'day kiddo!! hope all goes well for you!!
and i caught a movie with jb!! and before that i was at starbucks and i met selina!! well she looks older from the last time i remember her to be!! not as in older old but positive mature older. which is cool!! good luck with ya new work!!watched underworld in 3d!! the show is really pretty damn good:DD although most of the money i was paying for was for the 3d subtitles, but again, there were a few awesome scenes! like the lycan popping out of the screen and i managed to 'slap' it!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!! plus the silver nitrate gas!! 1 word AWESOME!! hahaha!! dammit!! using the word awesome definitely limits my vocabulary:((
after that we met jogina!! and randall!! made a new friend!! cool dude!!! we had BAO TODAY! hahahaha!!! food's price is alright, pretty standard for food in town! worth every penny:))
and then! we were deciding whether to watch a movie or not, but we ended up sheeshaing! HAHAHAHA!! AND THE CHERRY ON TOP OF IT WAS THAT I HAD HUMUS!! <3 <3 <3
PRETTY AWESOME DAY/NIGHT I MUST SAY!!
cheers!! time check, 4.44/14-2-12! time to sleep!! till next time!! :))
there is always a little truth behind every just kidding,a little emotion behind every i don't care, and always a little pain behind every its OK.
well, it has been a good weekend i must say, managed to hit Attica and Avalon this week:DD went for twin's play and NUS, had a photoshoot with jon, and ate lotsa sinful food:( diet starts again NOW!!! hahaha!! well as the week ends, it also ends my streak of enjoyment. i have to start to study and prepare for my upcoming UT(understanding test 3) the final paper!
i guess the pictures will speak the rest for me:DD
jager bombs!! at attica with vivian and isabel
attica with karan!! i look damn skinny here:0 deceiving photo!!!
the avalon night!! with ys yan jonhee and jo-ann and alex and rosabelle and her seniors:)
SUIT UP!!
KITTY KIAT FOLLOWED ME TO WATCH TWIN'S PLAY:DD
Felicia really has the talent to act!! hahahaha!!! knew you could cause you are forever like a drama mama:P
the set of the drama Black Comedy!!
AVALON! IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SEA:P
Marina Bay Sands light show!!
suited up!
a few of my favorite photos taken by Jonathan!! do check out his blog for more photos by him!! 
http://www.jon-photography.blogspot.com/ click here
this looks really really GOOD!!!!!!
i guess the pictures will speak the rest for me:DD
jager bombs!! at attica with vivian and isabel
attica with karan!! i look damn skinny here:0 deceiving photo!!!
the avalon night!! with ys yan jonhee and jo-ann and alex and rosabelle and her seniors:)
SUIT UP!!
KITTY KIAT FOLLOWED ME TO WATCH TWIN'S PLAY:DD
Felicia really has the talent to act!! hahahaha!!! knew you could cause you are forever like a drama mama:P
the set of the drama Black Comedy!!
AVALON! IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SEA:P
Marina Bay Sands light show!!
suited up!
a few of my favorite photos taken by Jonathan!! do check out his blog for more photos by him!! 
http://www.jon-photography.blogspot.com/ click here
this looks really really GOOD!!!!!!
ok thing is this, i came back from Attica, and ok. thing is that i got elbowed and punched by this dude, but it didn't really hurt just that he got me off on the wrong day. so i almost got into a fight with him but obviously i didn't cause i'm a lover not a fighter, my motto, and i called the bouncers. got him out and just wanted to get his identification to sue him.
so this dude tried to be violent against me. and that just wasn't cool. so the police came, and took his particulars and all, and the guy just had to bribe the police... wtf man?? he was going to get an additional charge. i was alr going to sue him why he wanted to do shit. now i feel damn guilty!! and shits. he was arrested on the spot and he damn i started to feel bad.
it got me thinking. yes when we get angry with someone. we curse and swear at the person wishing something really bad happens to him, but when it happened to him, i felt bad. i meant, come on it was just an elbow and a punch. i could have swallowed it like a man.
whatever it is stranger, i wish you all the best. most i can do is not to press charges, i forgive you.. probably too late. but better late than never. all the best..
well, at least it started of fine with starbucks and i had a full body massage!! had my salad with chloe remy and all!! feel like a king now!!
so this dude tried to be violent against me. and that just wasn't cool. so the police came, and took his particulars and all, and the guy just had to bribe the police... wtf man?? he was going to get an additional charge. i was alr going to sue him why he wanted to do shit. now i feel damn guilty!! and shits. he was arrested on the spot and he damn i started to feel bad.
it got me thinking. yes when we get angry with someone. we curse and swear at the person wishing something really bad happens to him, but when it happened to him, i felt bad. i meant, come on it was just an elbow and a punch. i could have swallowed it like a man.
whatever it is stranger, i wish you all the best. most i can do is not to press charges, i forgive you.. probably too late. but better late than never. all the best..
well, at least it started of fine with starbucks and i had a full body massage!! had my salad with chloe remy and all!! feel like a king now!!
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